My testimony

Before I knew God , I was very empty and I was lost , I did not know what is my real self value. I was doing all these things try to please my friends or other people , because I thought if they are happy about me or they like me then my value would be greater than other people. I couldn't feel the joy even my friend feel please at me .

One day , some of my friend bought me to this church, and I met a guy called simon who is also my leader now. He keep encourageing me since the first day we met, he told me God loves the way I am , also he told me I am the apple in God's eye and also God loves me so much that he send his only beloved son to die for me...I was stunking, how can someone die for me, I dont even know him yet. However, he was sending messages to me every week, was telling me how much God loves me and encourage me to come to know God. So I decided to go to church and find out what is this God simon talked about all the time.

Though one year walk with God and all the lovely brothers and sisters in church, I've relised that we are all sinners, but God still love us first , and he did ask his beloved son to die for our sin , so we can be holy in front of God and have enternal life. There is no one in my world would do hat for me , but god the highest king, the world's creator, he did that for me , he truely loves me , even I am so undeserve it. God really see me as apple in his eye, he really love me as I am, with this unconditional love, I gave my life to Jesus, I came to God and willing to let him to come into my heart and take control of my life, and now I am still enjoying his love every single day, and experience his powerful work in my life.

After I became a christian , I finally became confident of myself and I am able to just be myself and find a lot of really good and true friends in God, I start to learn how to love my family as well, also I start to share this amazing love with my other friends. God has blessed me so much and open up my eye to see a lot of amazing life stories, I am so in love with Jesus and he brings joy and peace in my heart everyday.

The most high God, the one who listen to our cries

Psalm 10

¹ Why, O LORD, do you stand far off?
Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?

King David felt that God seems very far away, even he was doubt about this but he didnt stop praying and trusting in God. This is faith , this is trust , he was not complaining but he asked god for help.

This remind me of when we feel alone or depress or upset or helpness, we need to keep praying , have this faith like david, keep trusing god, keep rely on god, be honest and tell God about our troubles, and what we are going though. He is the most powerful and most lovely father for us , he will listen to his children's story and he is willing to help us if we ask him.

I dont know what you are going though but I trust that God is there for you, he knows what you are going though and he also waiting you to come to him and share your story with him, he is your best friend , he also is your heavenly father. He loves you so much that he will surely give you strength and help you walk though this challenges or emotional period.

I am facing some challenges like financial, jobs, I used to feel that God was so far away as well, I will ask God sometime like "God, why the blessing is not here yet ?" but at the same time , i can sense that the blessing is just around the corner, I can actually feel it is coming, and it has a great purpose in it, and I will be just so blessed after I receive and know this purpose. Today after this reading , my faith is raise up again, I am going to trust God, and do what David did , trust god and also keep praying and tell him about my trouble :) . I am sure God will answer and he will surely take good care of his beloved children.

⁴ In his pride the wicked does not seek him;
in all his thoughts there is no room for God.

⁵ His ways are always prosperous;
he is haughty and your laws are far from him;
he sneers at all his enemies.

⁶ He says to himself, "Nothing will shake me;
I'll always be happy and never have trouble."

I love what it says about these scriptures in the study bible.

" Some people succeed in everything they do, and they brag that no one , not even god, can kepp them down. We may wonder why God allows these people to smass great wealth while they despise him as they do. But Why are we upset when the wicked prosper? are we angry about the damage they are doing or just jealous of their success? To answer these questions we must gain the right perspective on wickedness and wealth. The wicked will surely be punished because God hates their evil deeds. Wealth is only temporary, it is not necessarily a sign of God's approval on person's life; nor is lack of it a sign of god's disapproval. Dont let wealth or lack of it become your obsession."

Amen to that, God has spoken a lot in message to me , some time I will judge or get jealous at some people's wealth, but yeah as wealth is only temporary , and we should not let wealth or lack of it beclome our obsession, if so then it is easily like the scripture says " there is no room for God", I will need to seek his kingdom as my most important task, to have his daily bread every day :) .

RESPECT AND FREEDOM

^{1 peter 2:16-17}

¹⁶Live as free men, but do not use your freedom as a cover-up for evil; live as servants of God.

¹⁷Show proper respect to everyone: Love the brotherhood of believers, fear God, honor the king.

How do we respect ? " show proper respect to everyone"

How do we take freedom ? " do not use your freedom as a cover up for evil"

We as believers have freedom in Christ, but the apostles defined freedom more narrowly than the normal use of the word in common language. Christians use freedom as a tool for a life of exuberant service. It is the doundation that God gives to us to reach our highest potential. Because God gives us freedom from religious reules and eternal guilt , we must not seek to indulge our own desires; instead, we should reach for the best God has for us. Let your freedom sing of power , joy, and love ---accountable to god, devoted to others.

I REALLY FIND IT VERY VERY DISAPPOINTED ON PPL THAT WHO DO NOT KNOW HOW TO RESPECT THEIR BELOVED FAMILIES! God has already told us to show proper respect to everyone, your families are your closest ppl in your life with god, if a guy who do not know how to respect to his dad/ mum / sisters , then he will never know how to respect to his wife and his wife's families. Families are blessing from god into our life, why families are in my life? Because God wants me to learn how to love one and other, love is from inside out, inside is your families and out is ppl from outside of your world. From today , we need to pay more attention on our familes, we should invest more time and love into their life , and also respect all your family members, pratice your love with them, and let your love from God can grow from inside out.

Now we should set up a few simple task for our self and pratice the love n respect in our families :

1. Give a big smile to every of your family members every morning

2. Pray for your families every time you talk to God

3. Do not swore at one another.

4. Find 10 positive things from each other

5. Say "I love you" or "I really really thank God for have you in my life" to your parents or sisters and brothers at lease 3 times in a year.

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Psalm 7

¹ O LORD my God, I take refuge in you;
save and deliver me from all who pursue me,

² or they will tear me like a lion
and rip me to pieces with no one to rescue me.

³ O LORD my God, if I have done this
and there is guilt on my hands-

⁴ if I have done evil to him who is at peace with me
or without cause have robbed my foe-

⁵ then let my enemy pursue and overtake me;
let him trample my life to the ground
and make me sleep in the dust.
Selah

⁶ Arise, O LORD, in your anger;
rise up against the rage of my enemies.
Awake, my God; decree justice.

I believe that everyone of us have been challenged by someone , or someone hurt us or falsely accused , and do you alwasy want to revenge? David wrote this pslam and instead of talking matters into his own hands and striking back, David actually cried out for god's justice. Because in Romans12-19 or Hebrews 10:30, God says " it is mine to avenge, I will repay". So next time ask God to take your case, bring justice and restore your reputation.

Of course in Psalm 8:17" i will give thanks to the lord because of his rightousness and will song praise to name of the lord most high", we also need to praise god for his justices, David was sooo grateful that God was rightous. We need to like david, assured that god will continue to bring justice and fairness when we involve him in our daily activites... even if other ppl treat u unfairly outside, then the best way is to ask the one who is always fair and just to be with you :) . Also give thanks to him for his justice and peace. :)

why? why? and why?

John 13:7
Jesus replied, "You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand."

Why my name is tony? why the sun is so hot? why ? why and why?? We have a lot of "why" in our daily life, we want to ask this and ask that , we try to understand everything~~ but sometime we just cant find every answers for everything ...~~

Some times I would ask god "why you would want to love me ?" but I have accepted what he says as truth. We dont have to figure out the "why" behind his love , we just need to accept it, it is a gift :). As humans we want to understand everything, but there are something that only God understands, his wisdom is much much much higher than ours~~. Perhaps if we dont waste our time and energy trying to figure out what only God knows, we will have the energy to live passionate and purposeful lives.

When It comes to our purposes, we should pray and then make plans , not make plans and then pray that god will take our advice and make our plans work out. that is not what knowing god's purpose for our lives is all about. It is about living in his will each and everyday and it is the only way we will ever truly know peace and joy. we also always need to remind ourself that god is in control and i try to accept god's plan with joy. We must accept god's word and what he does at face value and not question it. Trusing God when we dont understand brings a lot of peace to our lives. Joyce Meyer's motto is " ask god for anything you want but be content with what he gives you" trust that his choice is always the best.

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i was going to write a lot about this video.......but seriously i dont know how I should describe this....

my friends...Jesus loves you...

sing a song of praise , sing a song of prayer

Psalm 25
¹ To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul;

² in you I trust, O my God.
Do not let me be put to shame,
nor let my enemies triumph over me.

³ No one whose hope is in you
will ever be put to shame,
but they will be put to shame
who are treacherous without excuse.

⁴ Show me your ways, O LORD,
teach me your paths;

⁵ guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.

⁶ Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love,
for they are from of old.

⁷ Remember not the sins of my youth
and my rebellious ways;
according to your love remember me,
for you are good, O LORD.

I really love these 2 sentence " Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long." This is from David, the king of isreal, a humble man of God, a man with faith.

Imagine you have everything, and you have power and money and even your army...are you still willing to commit to God and ask him to guide you so humblely. Sometime people are strange, when we had difficult time we ask for his help and his provision, but after God help us come over this tough time and he blessed us ,then we just easily turn away and forgot every blessing from God, and every single step that God walked with us...we sometime just forgot and thought everything is from our "hard work".....but God is still in the same place with his open arm, he is waiting us to come back to him and realize that everything was from him , and we do need his guidance for everything we do..."and my hope is in you all day long"....

How do we receive God's guidance? The first step is to want to be guided and to realize that God's primary guidance system is in his word--the Bible. The endless knowledge found in God's word. By reading the bible and constantly learning from it, we will gain the wisdom to perceive God's direction for our lives. We may be tempted to demand ansers from God, but David asked for direction. When we are willing to seek God, learn from his word, and obey his commands, then will we receive his specific guidance.

What is in my heart?

Time has come, this new season, this brand new season for me and also for all my friends, for my cg and for my church...

What we need to do ?? Paul told us " keep fighting!"

2 Timonthy 4 :6-8 " ⁶For I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time has come for my departure. ⁷I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. ⁸Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing."

In this scripture , Paul came to the stage that it is near the end of his life, he can confident say that " i have fought the good fight, i have finished the race , i have kept the faith" , he has been faithful to his call. I will ask myself, "am i faithful to my call? Did i fought a good fight?" I just feel that there is so much more for me to do for God, there is so much god has put in my heart, I need to keep fighting and keep runing this race with God together. Paul told us just keep fighting, and keep runing... Maybe we are facing some very difficult fight right now,maybe it is about jobs, relationship, health, or maybe we are in the situation that we can not see the end, or maybe you find yourself in the middle of nowhere....but just one more time, keep fighting~! It is too soon to quit! When you'ven been though hell, what's five more yards? Keep going! Keep believing, keep fighting, kepp dreaming the dream that God has put into your heart. If it were easy, anyone could do it. When we are with Jesus, we will discover that it was all worth it.

My friends,
-Keep believing in God
-Never give up -Keep fighting
-Keep running, just 5 more yards
-Keep encouraging yourself
-Keep praising and worshiping God

The best is yet to come :) , it just around the corner.

what are you dreaming?

Who loves dreaming here?? I am a dreamer haha, i am a big day dreamer, i think i almost spend 50% of my time to dream , to wonder and to think about my future...

God is a dreamer too. Jentezen Franklin said "you are never more like God than when you are dreaming, because God is a dreamer from the beginning....God makes things our of nothing, and he has passed on to you the ability to do the same thing-to make something out of what you cannot see." wow , that is so powerful~! God actually gives us freedom and power to dream and he is helping us to make our dream to come true :) . Think about this , the world's creator tells you personally that you can dream big and he will help you to make it to come true, think about how crazy is this~! I m sure I will just dream as fansy as i can , i will not care anything but dream huge~! Dream something far our of my ability ~!! Why ? Because the world's creator is going to help me to make it comes true! And surely I will believe it, and i will have a lot of faith in it. Why? Because the creator said it.

Today God has already told you to dream big and work on your dream, and he will help you to make it comes true. It is all about faith, faith is reaching up and grabbing hold of nothing and holding on untile it becomes something. We dream big and we believe it will come true. As long as we believe this, we believe that we have this special promise from the world's creator , and we have this special power from him, then what else we should fear to dream big? Nothing~! We will dream and act on it~!

Today if you have a dream, talk to God about it , ask God if the dream is from him, then plan for it and act on your dream, keep encourage yourself and work with God together and be patience and make it to come true! "The important thing is to spend time with God, because when you spend time with him, he unlocks your dreams and empowers you to walk them out~! "

My friends, never afraid to dream big , but also don't let your dream die but plan for it , do something about it , pray about it and always work with God as a team, because he is the one who can give us strength and power to make it to come true.

I LOVE JESUS!!

I love jesus ~!! Why? Because he loves me first, because he loves me unconditonally, because he loves me the most~!!! Because God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever shall blieve in him shall not perish, but have eternal life~!!! GOD LOVES U~!!

Today I just again feel God's love is sooo truth, I see God's love is so powerful ~! BEcause of this , my heart is fire up and i really want to tell you how much this greatest God loves u ~!

I actually dont know where to start haha, but i know that i am going to talk about jesus more and more in my daily life from now on :) . I m going to crazy about jesus~! It is like cars and games, if you love something you will always mention about it, like my friend loves cars , he always talk about cars with me and his friends , also one of my friend loves EB games, then everytime he talked , he would share all the fun stories in the store and all the new games in the market~! It is all about our most interest and about what is our love~!

I love Jesus~! I m crazy about Jesus, I want to know more and more about him daily~! As I put god in first of my life , i should talk more about jesus , i should talk jesus more than anthing else~! More than cars, more than games , more than anything else. I would mention about his name everyday , i would be proud of him and his love for us ! Even the evil is trying to lie and he is trying to destroy , but god is here with us , god is here to safe us , and he is here to love us , to restore, and to bring joy and happniess into our life~! It is because of him and his love and his blood, then i can still be here today share this with you, then i can be changed and be faithful make my dream big ~! It is because of his love, i have find sooo many true bro and sis in our church, it is because of his love , i found my home, it is because of his love , i found my goal and vision, it is because of his love , i found the true love and hope, It is all about Jesus, not about anything else, but it is only about Jesus <3

The best is yet to come , Jesus is not done with us yet~! He still has so much more he wants to show us , and he has so much more he wants to bless us , he still has so much more he wants us to discover , he still has so much more he wants to show us how much he loves us :) . Friends, again , Jesus loves you :)

just a random thought

I just have this random thought when i was taking shower like 10min ago lol.

I was thinking about giving, what is giving? I think by talking about giving, it is all about receiving, if we don't know how to receive then we don't know how to give, if we don't receive anything, then we cant even give anything as well.

Also a random topic as well, not really~ >< . If your friend give u a gift , it is a very very expensive white T-shirt, he give this gift to you and ask you to wear it. Of course as it is so expensive and it is also so white as well, you don't want any dirt or anything to make the T-shirt dirty, you will try all your best to prevent all the dirt to go on this White T-shirt. This remind me of God and us. God has given us grace, it is like a White T-shirt , it is so clean and it is so beautiful. Jesus ask us to wear it daily, so we are holy and clean in front of God. Sins are like those dirt on earth, the dirt that can go on your T-shirt and make your T-shirt dirty. If you know how valuable you are in God's eye, if you know how great is this T-shirt called "grace" , then you will not trying to look for sins (the dirt) to ruin your white T-shirt ,but you will look for God's grace and righteousness which makes your T-shirt white daily. Joseph Prince said this before" grace is like a waterfall, and we are like a rock on the mud, God has place us under the waterfall, so no matter how dirty we are, how much mud on the rocks ,but this waterfall is going to wash us 24/7 , the rock (us) can be clean all the time~!!! Praise God~!!" My friends, God loves you, he has send his son to die for us, Jesus's blood has already wash away all your wrong doings , all your sins, and all your wrong thought, his blood make you righteousness and make you holy in front of God~!! God has given you this White T-shirt, you just need to simply receive it, and wear it daily , and always always look for his kingdom and righteousness but not sins, take good care of your white T-shirt. As we know how to receive this great gift,then we will know how to give, we will tell all our friends families about how nice is this white T-shirt and how much God loves you as well. That is giving, giving is all about receiving...

wake up ~! relax ~! And Enjoy~!

Hosea 12: 8 "Ephraim boasts, " I m very rich; i have become wealthy. With all my wealth they will not find in me any iniquity or sin"















Sometime it is very easy for us to claim that our material success is due to our own hard work, our own intelligence. We may think that riches are our own , are from us, and we can have the right to use them anyway we please...but if we think in that way, we might have lost our heart because we may not feel the need of God~ but the truth is we need God, all these are from God, our heavenly father. Everything is from God...

Some people would think that their wealth is a sign for God's approval, and they dont bother to consider how they had gotten it. In God's eye , success is different measure from ours. He calls us to faithfulness, not to affluence. Character is more important to him than $$.

All the resources and all opportunities are from God, by his mercy and grace~! Sometime you see people trying so hard , working so hard by their own strength , try to achieve something they always want for maybe their last 10 or 20 years~! IT can be a big house , it can be an expensive car, it can be just a show off~! I am not saying hard working is bad, but I am just saying that work hard for a good and enternal purpose, and not by your own strength but work with God together. Some time you work so hard, you spend most of the time on work or your own business, you may gain a lot of money or maybe not, it is a risk , but you may also lost the time that you can spend with your family, the time that you can build up a good relationship with your family, and also the time that you just do some sports to benifit your own health.

What is more important? Money or relationship , health ect? If you say money, ok, then why do you need the money for?? You may say "i need them to buy me a car or a house" or" i need the money to provide for my family" or "i need the money to go out with my friends" . Oh well, let me ask you something first, if you only spend time at work but not with your family and friends, you will not have as close relationship with them, then of course you can provide for your family, but they cant feel the love inside, because they need money but also the relationship with the provider~! Otherwise you will just become a mechine. If you have money to get your expensive dream car, then what? Who are you going to share your joy with? Your car? I m sorry but your car doesnt talk to you and laught with you. My friends, all these material things are all from God, it is all his blessing to us. All these blessing have his love in it. He is willing to talk to you and spend time with you, but we just need to make ourself more avariable for God, talk to him days and nights, and find out more about him and get closer and closer to this best provider in the whole world, you will find out more about his purposes behind his blessing, you will understand and keep receiving in a positive way, I m sure if you do that , God will bless you more and more , and also you will just relax and enjoy in his strong arm. You are not doing this by your own anymore , you are doing this for him and his kingdom.

Thank you God for your provision always and thank you so much for your love, please open up our eyes and mind to receive your blessing and grace, let us to come closer and closer to you everyday. It is not about us but it is only about your kingdom.

God's love for Israel 30/07/09

Hosea 11:1-3

¹ When Israel was a child, I loved him,
and out of Egypt I called my son.

² But the more I called Israel,
the further they went from me.
They sacrificed to the Baals
and they burned incense to images.

³ It was I who taught Ephraim to walk,
taking them by the arms;

but they did not realize
it was I who healed them.

God's love is unconditional love, he always loves us, always call us his beloved son. even when we sin or even when we been unfaithful sometime, but he still there for us , still love us , and still waiting for us to come back, this is the true love...thank you my heavenly father, thank you so much for this love you prepare for us, and thank you you call us beloved...I just pray that we can always open our heart to welcome you in and experience this special gift you have prepare for us. In this perfect love, we have no more worries , have dont have to keep depending on our own strength, we dont have to keep struggling on our failures, because we can just depend on God, and have faith and believe that he will take care for us, and we can always rejoyce in his arm...

In this scripture, even Isael they were unfaithful to God, "they sacrificed to Baals and they burned incense to images", but God still love Isael, God still want to give them 2nd chance, God still provide for Isael, he still bring healing to Isael.

"It was I who taught Ephraim to walk, taking them by the arms, but they did not realize it was I who healed them".

This remind some of my personal behaviour as well...God has consistently provide for me , but sometime I would refuse to see what he had done, sometime I still thought it may from my own strength... In this scripture, Isael showed no interest in thanking God, maybe you will think "wow , that is bad...they should not do it.." but i found that sometime I also forgot to thank god... Ungratefulness.....When is the last time we thank our parents for take good care of us? when is the last time you thank pastor for the services...? when is the last time you thank your boss to give you a job? when is the last time you thank God for his provision? In the good time we need to be thankful, even in the hard time , we should become more thankful. Thank God all the time for his love and his blessing, keep believing the truth that God will provide. It is not about ourself right doing , it always about the right believing :) .

My friends...God loves us, stop struggling from your difficult situation, stop depending on your own strength , but come into god's arm and have a rest, God's peace is always with you .

First blog _29/07/09

what is love?

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.