My testimony

Before I knew God , I was very empty and I was lost , I did not know what is my real self value. I was doing all these things try to please my friends or other people , because I thought if they are happy about me or they like me then my value would be greater than other people. I couldn't feel the joy even my friend feel please at me .

One day , some of my friend bought me to this church, and I met a guy called simon who is also my leader now. He keep encourageing me since the first day we met, he told me God loves the way I am , also he told me I am the apple in God's eye and also God loves me so much that he send his only beloved son to die for me...I was stunking, how can someone die for me, I dont even know him yet. However, he was sending messages to me every week, was telling me how much God loves me and encourage me to come to know God. So I decided to go to church and find out what is this God simon talked about all the time.

Though one year walk with God and all the lovely brothers and sisters in church, I've relised that we are all sinners, but God still love us first , and he did ask his beloved son to die for our sin , so we can be holy in front of God and have enternal life. There is no one in my world would do hat for me , but god the highest king, the world's creator, he did that for me , he truely loves me , even I am so undeserve it. God really see me as apple in his eye, he really love me as I am, with this unconditional love, I gave my life to Jesus, I came to God and willing to let him to come into my heart and take control of my life, and now I am still enjoying his love every single day, and experience his powerful work in my life.

After I became a christian , I finally became confident of myself and I am able to just be myself and find a lot of really good and true friends in God, I start to learn how to love my family as well, also I start to share this amazing love with my other friends. God has blessed me so much and open up my eye to see a lot of amazing life stories, I am so in love with Jesus and he brings joy and peace in my heart everyday.

The most high God, the one who listen to our cries

Psalm 10

¹ Why, O LORD, do you stand far off?
Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?

King David felt that God seems very far away, even he was doubt about this but he didnt stop praying and trusting in God. This is faith , this is trust , he was not complaining but he asked god for help.

This remind me of when we feel alone or depress or upset or helpness, we need to keep praying , have this faith like david, keep trusing god, keep rely on god, be honest and tell God about our troubles, and what we are going though. He is the most powerful and most lovely father for us , he will listen to his children's story and he is willing to help us if we ask him.

I dont know what you are going though but I trust that God is there for you, he knows what you are going though and he also waiting you to come to him and share your story with him, he is your best friend , he also is your heavenly father. He loves you so much that he will surely give you strength and help you walk though this challenges or emotional period.

I am facing some challenges like financial, jobs, I used to feel that God was so far away as well, I will ask God sometime like "God, why the blessing is not here yet ?" but at the same time , i can sense that the blessing is just around the corner, I can actually feel it is coming, and it has a great purpose in it, and I will be just so blessed after I receive and know this purpose. Today after this reading , my faith is raise up again, I am going to trust God, and do what David did , trust god and also keep praying and tell him about my trouble :) . I am sure God will answer and he will surely take good care of his beloved children.

⁴ In his pride the wicked does not seek him;
in all his thoughts there is no room for God.

⁵ His ways are always prosperous;
he is haughty and your laws are far from him;
he sneers at all his enemies.

⁶ He says to himself, "Nothing will shake me;
I'll always be happy and never have trouble."

I love what it says about these scriptures in the study bible.

" Some people succeed in everything they do, and they brag that no one , not even god, can kepp them down. We may wonder why God allows these people to smass great wealth while they despise him as they do. But Why are we upset when the wicked prosper? are we angry about the damage they are doing or just jealous of their success? To answer these questions we must gain the right perspective on wickedness and wealth. The wicked will surely be punished because God hates their evil deeds. Wealth is only temporary, it is not necessarily a sign of God's approval on person's life; nor is lack of it a sign of god's disapproval. Dont let wealth or lack of it become your obsession."

Amen to that, God has spoken a lot in message to me , some time I will judge or get jealous at some people's wealth, but yeah as wealth is only temporary , and we should not let wealth or lack of it beclome our obsession, if so then it is easily like the scripture says " there is no room for God", I will need to seek his kingdom as my most important task, to have his daily bread every day :) .

RESPECT AND FREEDOM

^{1 peter 2:16-17}

¹⁶Live as free men, but do not use your freedom as a cover-up for evil; live as servants of God.

¹⁷Show proper respect to everyone: Love the brotherhood of believers, fear God, honor the king.

How do we respect ? " show proper respect to everyone"

How do we take freedom ? " do not use your freedom as a cover up for evil"

We as believers have freedom in Christ, but the apostles defined freedom more narrowly than the normal use of the word in common language. Christians use freedom as a tool for a life of exuberant service. It is the doundation that God gives to us to reach our highest potential. Because God gives us freedom from religious reules and eternal guilt , we must not seek to indulge our own desires; instead, we should reach for the best God has for us. Let your freedom sing of power , joy, and love ---accountable to god, devoted to others.

I REALLY FIND IT VERY VERY DISAPPOINTED ON PPL THAT WHO DO NOT KNOW HOW TO RESPECT THEIR BELOVED FAMILIES! God has already told us to show proper respect to everyone, your families are your closest ppl in your life with god, if a guy who do not know how to respect to his dad/ mum / sisters , then he will never know how to respect to his wife and his wife's families. Families are blessing from god into our life, why families are in my life? Because God wants me to learn how to love one and other, love is from inside out, inside is your families and out is ppl from outside of your world. From today , we need to pay more attention on our familes, we should invest more time and love into their life , and also respect all your family members, pratice your love with them, and let your love from God can grow from inside out.

Now we should set up a few simple task for our self and pratice the love n respect in our families :

1. Give a big smile to every of your family members every morning

2. Pray for your families every time you talk to God

3. Do not swore at one another.

4. Find 10 positive things from each other

5. Say "I love you" or "I really really thank God for have you in my life" to your parents or sisters and brothers at lease 3 times in a year.

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Psalm 7

¹ O LORD my God, I take refuge in you;
save and deliver me from all who pursue me,

² or they will tear me like a lion
and rip me to pieces with no one to rescue me.

³ O LORD my God, if I have done this
and there is guilt on my hands-

⁴ if I have done evil to him who is at peace with me
or without cause have robbed my foe-

⁵ then let my enemy pursue and overtake me;
let him trample my life to the ground
and make me sleep in the dust.
Selah

⁶ Arise, O LORD, in your anger;
rise up against the rage of my enemies.
Awake, my God; decree justice.

I believe that everyone of us have been challenged by someone , or someone hurt us or falsely accused , and do you alwasy want to revenge? David wrote this pslam and instead of talking matters into his own hands and striking back, David actually cried out for god's justice. Because in Romans12-19 or Hebrews 10:30, God says " it is mine to avenge, I will repay". So next time ask God to take your case, bring justice and restore your reputation.

Of course in Psalm 8:17" i will give thanks to the lord because of his rightousness and will song praise to name of the lord most high", we also need to praise god for his justices, David was sooo grateful that God was rightous. We need to like david, assured that god will continue to bring justice and fairness when we involve him in our daily activites... even if other ppl treat u unfairly outside, then the best way is to ask the one who is always fair and just to be with you :) . Also give thanks to him for his justice and peace. :)

why? why? and why?

John 13:7
Jesus replied, "You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand."

Why my name is tony? why the sun is so hot? why ? why and why?? We have a lot of "why" in our daily life, we want to ask this and ask that , we try to understand everything~~ but sometime we just cant find every answers for everything ...~~

Some times I would ask god "why you would want to love me ?" but I have accepted what he says as truth. We dont have to figure out the "why" behind his love , we just need to accept it, it is a gift :). As humans we want to understand everything, but there are something that only God understands, his wisdom is much much much higher than ours~~. Perhaps if we dont waste our time and energy trying to figure out what only God knows, we will have the energy to live passionate and purposeful lives.

When It comes to our purposes, we should pray and then make plans , not make plans and then pray that god will take our advice and make our plans work out. that is not what knowing god's purpose for our lives is all about. It is about living in his will each and everyday and it is the only way we will ever truly know peace and joy. we also always need to remind ourself that god is in control and i try to accept god's plan with joy. We must accept god's word and what he does at face value and not question it. Trusing God when we dont understand brings a lot of peace to our lives. Joyce Meyer's motto is " ask god for anything you want but be content with what he gives you" trust that his choice is always the best.

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i was going to write a lot about this video.......but seriously i dont know how I should describe this....

my friends...Jesus loves you...

sing a song of praise , sing a song of prayer

Psalm 25
¹ To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul;

² in you I trust, O my God.
Do not let me be put to shame,
nor let my enemies triumph over me.

³ No one whose hope is in you
will ever be put to shame,
but they will be put to shame
who are treacherous without excuse.

⁴ Show me your ways, O LORD,
teach me your paths;

⁵ guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.

⁶ Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love,
for they are from of old.

⁷ Remember not the sins of my youth
and my rebellious ways;
according to your love remember me,
for you are good, O LORD.

I really love these 2 sentence " Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long." This is from David, the king of isreal, a humble man of God, a man with faith.

Imagine you have everything, and you have power and money and even your army...are you still willing to commit to God and ask him to guide you so humblely. Sometime people are strange, when we had difficult time we ask for his help and his provision, but after God help us come over this tough time and he blessed us ,then we just easily turn away and forgot every blessing from God, and every single step that God walked with us...we sometime just forgot and thought everything is from our "hard work".....but God is still in the same place with his open arm, he is waiting us to come back to him and realize that everything was from him , and we do need his guidance for everything we do..."and my hope is in you all day long"....

How do we receive God's guidance? The first step is to want to be guided and to realize that God's primary guidance system is in his word--the Bible. The endless knowledge found in God's word. By reading the bible and constantly learning from it, we will gain the wisdom to perceive God's direction for our lives. We may be tempted to demand ansers from God, but David asked for direction. When we are willing to seek God, learn from his word, and obey his commands, then will we receive his specific guidance.